To My Husband
I have always known it was you.
When I was 12 and you were 14 and you were such a nerd but "omg you guys he's so cute and funny."
When I was 15 and you were 17 and we had been friends for years but I still didn't really even know you very well. I loved you anyway.
When I was 17 and you were 19 and it seemed like nobody else understood what I was going through but you stayed. And I loved you even though we weren't together.
When I was 19 and you were 21 and I thought things were finally falling into place for us, but neither of us were ever in the same place emotionally or maturity wise. When people told me you weren't the one for me for so long and I finally just said "screw it, I love him and we're going to be together."
When I was 21 and you were 23 and we found out we were having a baby. Neither of us had a job and both of us were terrified. Our families put together a wedding in about 2 months and our lives changed forever. We welcomed Annabella Grace into our tiny home and suddenly our world grew so much bigger.
When I was 22 and you were 24 and I realized that you weren't as perfect as I thought you were. When we fought and cried and almost quit because maybe all of this time we actually weren't meant for each other. But we were. We are meant for each other.
We make each other better.
When I'm 23 and you're 25, we're going to make our dreams come true - together - because we push each other to do better, always.
When I'm 40 and you're 42, and Annabella is graduating from high school, I'll be by your side cheering her on.
When I'm 65 and you're 67, I'll be the one with brightly colored hair and wrinkles sitting next to you on the plane as we travel the world.
When I'm 82 and you're 84... you better still be around because I don't know if I can make it through this life without you.
There is no one else I would rather do life with. There's no one else I would rather fight with, and then make up with. It's never going to be easy but it will always be exhilarating. From the very beginning, I have always known it would be you that I would spend my life with. I can't explain why or how but some part of me just always knew.
So, happy 25th birthday Jeremy. I love you and I hope we can spend many more birthdays together.
(Written and originally published 1/7/2017)